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Friday May 9,2008

41 years versus 5 min.

by Twinkle60

I begin when we married 41 years ago. At times it seems like yesterday. We had two children who are now grown and married with children of their own. My husband worked hard to provide for the family. He was the most caring loving unselfish man that I ever met. The longer we were married the better our marriage and life became.

It finally came time for retirement (we had so many plans) and he had been retired for one year. He had annual check ups and took good care of himself. One afternoon he asked me to lay down with him for a nap, which I did and I awoke to loud gasping breaths.

I called 911 and then started CPR on him but by the time the EMT's got there he was gone. I could do nothing. It was the most helpless feeling I've ever experienced. He was truly the love of my life. We were always together. We were really one.

He's been gone 3 weeks and I have to say this is the most traumatic devestating thing I've ever experienced. It was so sudden. I've begun the grieving process and just want to be at home. I don't want to be around people. I feel his presence at home and can smell his shirts and feel closer to him.

I know only God himself can bring me through this. I've all but shut down. Maybe that's part of it. I do have to say that finding this site has been the best medicine for me because there are real people who have experienced the same thing I'm going through. I don't know how to get through each day but with God's help I'll some how make it.

Thank you for letting me tell my story. I want to say my hear truly goes out to all who have lost loved ones. I would like to hear from you if anyone has the time. Again thanks my email is

dvbroy@mychoice.net

Vicky

My whole life changed in a matter of seconds.